I wonder why im still crying, why she didnt just call me back and gain it back this way, why is it she says she knows me but she still sends me messages from a bird in which she gets her family into, why I feel I lose everyone like danny nd my father nd jesse, why she felt so caved in when I was always right here, why she never drew me when she had a shadow to catch, why my grandma has to die, why ashleigh didnt want to come to NY nd in the end she stays their, why my body is colapsing on the inside, why life seems hopless now, why im writing this when no one cares, why trust and vertues have changed since the 50's-early eightys?
I want answers that in life tens of thousands of people cant answer but only a fiew. I needed my best friend that promised to be my friend untill we were old. We believed we would never be split apart. She told me she was nothing like my father nd she wasnt just going to get up and pack but she did. She could have had me nd she still can. I wait for you at the table we ate lunch at. hope and faithfulness is a vertue worth fighting for but hopelessness is not. Losing someone is like a peace of your puzzle being ripped from that heart of yours nd i would know. So lose me cus of a guy, for feeling guilt and anger.Thats hopelessness and sweety I know you are better then that you even said so about the first time we met. I believe we will be just call nd what will have changed. I dont want to go home anymore knowing your not gunna be their so what is everyone else gunna say. What about holland nd jake. You were the last peace home that mattered so i guess ive found a new home again nd i have to get used to it. But forever ill love you nd care about you nd you need to know that. And you dont have to date someone to feel love. I think your the one that showed me that.